The long road to insanity

Very Strange

2005-01-31T10:00:00.000-05:00

Lately i've noticed a strange thing happening.And for me too notice it must have been happening alot because i am usually oblivious to these types of things.Men are starting to open doors for me.Not exactly men i know,but not completely unknown either.I live in a very small town so even if you don't know someone you've seen them and they have seen you.The fact that they are opening doors is not strange in itself.However 6 months ago me+door=nothing.
So what has changed?I have lost 50+ lbs.After the last baby was born we decided not to have anymore.Not a hard decision really since we have 6.But i was a bit hefty.Having 4 babies in 5 years will do that.
Since we weren't having anymore i started seriously dieting.I was determined to get back into all my great clothes.I really had not considered this side effect.Doors open magically,the grocery boy follows me to my car to help load,men are taking notice!
I know i should look at this as a good thing,but i never really cared what other people thought.I just wonder at what weight do women(or men)become a non-entity?At what size do you lose the right to basic curtesy?

My Big Mouth

2005-01-27T17:00:00.000-05:00

More on spongebob.To everybody who read my post yesterday and took it the way it was meant-glad you got a laugh.It is nonsense.To those who took offense i have 1 word.MEDICATE!I did not mention any particular religious leader.I did read the links some tight-ass was kind enough to leave for me.They did not change my opinions.I did not have an epiphany.
No,school is really not the appropriate place for children to learn about diversity.It is a parents responsiblity to teach their child about all the wonderful differences that make each person special.However not all children have parents that take the time or put forth the effort.Sad but true.
A dilemma to be sure.I don't mind admitting i don't know what the right solution is.
I don't believe watching the video is harmful to my children,nor do i believe it will in any way influence their opinions on gays/straights or what makes up a family.For the record,i believe a family has more to do with love,caring and respect than gender.
So there!

Spongebob is Gay

2005-01-26T09:35:00.000-05:00

Oh my GOD!!Spongebob is gay.And here i just thought he was annoying!I wasn't even going to mention this cause i just think it's stupid,but everywhere i go it seems to be a major topic of conversation.I think what spongebob does in the privacy of his own pineapple is his business.Seriously,i think it's great that the so-called religious leaders have enough free time to police childrens cartoons.I sure wish i did!

Movies & Books

2005-01-25T13:25:00.000-05:00

This weekend in anticipation of a long weekend snowed in with 6 kiddies i bought 3 new movies.
"Cat Woman" of course for the hubby.Turns out i was wrong!It wasn't awhole lot of Halle Berry in spandex.It was awhole lot of Halle Berry in leather.It didn't start out to bad,but it got ridiculus really fast.The best thing i could say about this movie?There was a scene where she was walking along a roof ledge and she had on the coolest pair of shoes!
"Without a paddle" not as good as i hoped,but it wasn't the worst movie i've seen.It did have it's moments and i did laugh.My hubby liked it more than i did.Hmmm,3 guys,beer,chicks i wonder.
Cellular" this was really a good movie!Kim Bassinger was great and if you like action this is for you.The action starts within the first couple of min. and just keeps going.
I'm almost done "Song of Susannah" by Stephen King.It's good but i'm not enjoying it as much as the others.Maybe it's because i know it's almost the end of the line.Oh well.

My Shame

2005-01-24T08:47:00.000-05:00

Oh the shame.It started out so innocent.All day friday i listened to the weather forecast as it got steadily worse.So as soon as hubby got home from work i grabbed my coat and like a good little lemming and ran to the grocer for milk and bread.There were other essentials in there but as long as you have milk and bread everythings okay,RIGHT?
Since i was going to be trapped in the house all weekend with 6 demon kidlets i also decided to stop at the mall and stock up on other essentials.Rope,chains,whips no no no!Bad mommy!I actually got them some new board games,puzzels and a ton of movies.
This is where my story goes horribly wrong.I came out of the mall,turned on the car,started driving and found myself singing at the top of my lungs.TO VANILLA ICE!!Oh the shame!I have to admit i love that song,something about "ice,ice baby".Don't laugh at me,you know there is a song out there with no redeming qualities other than it get's you going.What is it?Go ahead admit it!You'll feel better.

More snow

2005-01-21T10:50:00.000-05:00

We are getting more snow.Yuck!The only good thing to come out of all this miserable weather is hubby will be home all weekend.We have been remodeling for almost 7 months now but all the hours he's been working i'm doing most of it myself.Not this weekend.I've got a list as long as my arm.Lowes is delivering another truck load of drywall and supplies.
As i'm writing this a lightbulb just went on above my head.You don't think he's working all these hours to get out of helping?NAH,he would'nt do that.
Moving on,i finished "Incubus Dreams" by Laurell Hamilton.I love her books,but the sex scenes are getting abit out of hand.I have nothing against sex (6 kids:duh) but i like alittle plot in between.Other than that it was an entertaining read.

The deer are out to get me!!

2005-01-20T09:44:00.000-05:00

The deer are out to get me.I know this for a fact.There was a big meeting in the woods somewhere and i just know they have my picture on posters like osama.
A few years back i hit a deer.I really creamed it.It was the night before thanksgiving and i was in a big hurry to get home.Pies to bake and all.I was driving way to fast,came up over a hill and there he was.No more deer and no more car.
Ever since the deer have been gunning for me.They jump out in front of me like kamakazi's on a mission.I know their all sitting in the forest laughing while i'm sitting on the side of the road shaking after another near miss.
It has gotten so bad everyone in my family is making fun of me.My 4 y/o will sit in his car seat and every so often i'll hear "mommy,look it's a deer" then he laughs manically.
I have become the elmer fudd of the driving world.

Movie's

2005-01-19T09:32:00.000-05:00

I know i've mentioned that i have a serious movie/t.v. addiction.I have a problem.Are there meetings for this?"Hi,my name is christy and i'm a t.v.holic".I have been know to plan my day around what shows i want to see.My oldest son is named Ryan because i had to watch "another world" during labor and the character i saw right before my son made his entrance was named Ryan.I tell you this so you will understand.
I bought "Dawn of the Dead" the day it came out.I had to see it and it was great.GREAT!!!One of the previews was for a soon to be released "shaun of the dead".It seemed like every movie i rented for the next month had this preview.I am weak.The day "Shaun" came out i ran to BB.No luck.I tried for the next 3 weeks to get a copy of this movie.This weekend i got tired of waiting and bought it.It's cheesy and campy and i love it!!
I also bought "The Village".This was a great movie,too.Not what i was expecting but that's what made it great.I've seen so many movie's and read so many books that most of the time the ending is no suprise.I never saw this coming.
Hubby wants to see "catwoman".Can you guess why??(hint) Halle Berry + lots of spandex= a good time had by all.(LOL).

2005-01-18T20:57:00.000-05:00

Retarded dog

2005-01-18T15:16:00.000-05:00

My dog has gone retarded.Or maybe it's just becoming more noticeable the bigger he gets.Yesterday he peed on some poor smuck.We were out for our daily drag and i stopped to talk to a women who lives around the corner.He dad came out an was standing next to zeus( retardo dog).I guess he stood still alittle too long and next thing we knew-zeus peed on his leg!!
Zeus is a male dog just coming into his prime so he really saves it up for his walks.Have to mark that territory!We didn't notice what was happening immediately sooo i don't think i'd wear those shoes again,but that's just me.
Making it worse his daughter and i could not stop laughing.
Maybe he just didn't like having another guy around.He is definitely a female oriented dog.
This isn't the only thing that makes me question whether he was oxygen deprived at birth.He weighs a good 150 lbs and he is terrified of cats,poodles and basically his own shadow.He runs into walls,doors,people and pretty much anything else that doesn't jump out of the way.He will also stare at himself in any surface with a reflection,but so does my 11 y/o daughter.

It's been awhile

2005-01-17T13:01:00.000-05:00

It's been awhile since i've been able to blog.We've had almost 2 weeks of amazingly bad weather.It ran the gamut from gale force winds to freezing rain and snow,sometimes all at once.When we did have power the news was dire with flooding and massive power outages.Some areas went over a week without electricity.The red cross was begging for help and donations.It got me thinking about the tsunami.In between news updates on our own dire straits i was bombbarded with celebs begging me to send money for the tsunami relief.
Now i'm not saying i'm unsympatheic to their plight,i am.I just think we should help our own before we help everyone else.Why is it we can come up with millions of dollars to help other countries but we still have children going without a roof over their heads and food in their bellies?
I can't help but wonder if this is a band-aid for some people.Kind of a "see how good and generous we are",almost like a child saying "please like me".
These are just my opinions.I know they are not popular,but i don't care.

Say it ain't so

2005-01-04T22:27:00.000-05:00

Waiting at the bus stop with the kiddies this morning i heard one of the other mothers talking to her dd.I really wasn't listening cause i'm not nosey(ha!) and i really don't care(closer to the truth).What i did hear was "just ignore them,someday they will realize they are no better than anyone else.And " We are all the same-just people."I'm sure i don't have the exact wording right but you get the drift.

I cringed inside.These sentiments seem wrong to me on so many levels.Do people suddenly wake up one day and say to themselves "My God,I've been s wrong".Not bloody likely.Asshole's don't turn into roses-just bigger assholes.

"No better than anyone else?" That's depressing.There are plenty of people i am better than and plenty of people that are better than me!

"We are all the same?".Ridiculous How boring would this world be if we were all the same.It's our differences that make life exciting.

Open Water

2005-01-04T07:37:00.000-05:00

This movie was much anticipated in my house.I have 2 boys who have inherited my love of horror movies and they are especially fond of shark movies.My 4 y/o has seen every shark movie ever made and he is picky.He know they are not real and expects you to explain the special effects in great detail.Maybe he'll be a film maker.
When i say he has seen every shark movie i am not stretching.He watches every documentary,movie even that annoying Irwin guy.
So i rented this movie.I always watch them first so i can control what he is seeing,he is only 4.
I kept hearing great reviews.Maybe they saw a different movie.This was incredibly boring.By the middle i was hoping the sharks would eat them and get it over with.

GASP My political tirate

2005-01-03T22:47:00.000-05:00

When i decided to start a blog i swore i was going to keep my politcal opinions to myself.There are already so many opinions out there and so many arguments it just seemed redundant.But...
Hubby and i were talking about something that happened a few months ago and it just got me irritated all over again.
There is a gas station near by that i love going to.It's full-serve and i hate pumping gas.It's owned and run by a family of the islamic faith.Before 9/11 they were neither friendly nor unfriendly.They served your gas and took your money.End of transaction.After 9/11 their attitude changed.They were scared.These are american citizens and they were truly scared.They have been citizens so long they have teenagers that were born here.I couldn't understand why they were scared.I do now.
Less than a year ago someone attacked the father as he was finishing up for the evening.Tied him up,beat him and dumped him into the creek behind his station.
Those that know me,know i am not a bleeding heart.I fully support our troops and the incrediably brave job their doing.But this was an attack on a U.S. citizen by another U.S. citizen.Simply because of the difference in his appearance and ignorance.
Now more than ever is the time for solidarity.Stand tall,Stand proud,but for god's sake(your and mine)Stand TOGETHER!!!

New Year's Resolution

2005-01-03T08:33:00.000-05:00

As a general rule i don't make resolutions.I am a big list person.I always have a list of thing's i'd like to accomplish so i really have no need for resolutions.
I am going to make one this year,though it's more of a resolution for my daughter.

I have an 11 y/o daughter with adhd.Anyone who has a child or knows a child with adhd know's there are alot of side issue's that go along.My daughter has very low self worth.She is a beautiful child(not just a mommy's pride).But as with alot of kids with adhd she is immature for her age.Kid's can be very cruel when they sense differences and she has alot of trouble fitting in,and it just circles.The more she doesn't fit in the harder she tries,the harder she tries the less she fit's in.

The last day of school before christmas break i got a call from a friend about my dd.It seems she was giving a certain young man in her class a very hard time.This young man had sent her home in tears more times than i can count since school started.I generally try to adopt the ignore it policy,but i got tired of her crying and talking to the childs parent did no good.When i got this phone call my inital reaction was and still is-GOOD.For my daughter to fight back is a huge step for her.If the boy's parents had dealt with the problem it wouldn't have escalated,but to think i'm going to punish her is laughable.

So my New Year's resolution is to help my dd be more assertive and realize that being different is not a bad thing!

Wishing you a Jimmy Buffett New Years Eve

2004-12-31T16:47:00.000-05:00

Here's hoping you all get drunk and screw!The world would be a happier place if everybody listened to Jimmy once in awhile.I am not going to preach about drinking and driving.I'm a mom,not your mom.You know it's bad.
I am staying home.I don't like going out on this particular night.Too many crazy people.Plus i don't feel like spending the money this close to my christmas debt(which i will be paying for till next christmas).I don't mean to stereotype here,but i'm an irish/catholic.A night of drinking=mortgage payment.Enough said.
Have a happy,safe New Year.

Anti-social in my old age

2004-12-31T01:31:00.000-05:00

Dh made the comment tonight that he was surprised i hadn't suggested going out for New Years.That got me thinking.Am i really becoming reclusive and anti-social at the ripe old age of 35?
I don't think so.I'm just tired of dealing with other peoples stupidity.That's not to say i am the best or the brightest.Far from it.But i did learn one essential skill growing up that i think many are lacking.I know when to shut the hell up!!
So i have come up with my own list for public decorum that might clear things up for people.

How To Act In Public
1:If a conversation is going on and you have nothing intelligent to add-SHUT UP!(you might just learn something)
2:Don't force your political beliefs on other people.You have the right to believe whatever you wish-and so does everyone else.
3:Do not regal everyone with cute/smart/talented kid stories.Lots of us have kids,we all have stories.Some of us realize they are only truly amazing to the childs actual parent.
4:Any sentence that start's with i'm so drunk can be kept to your self.
5:When in doubt-Shut up!.Some of us get truly offended by racial,bigoted or just generally stupid statements.

And now i will take my own advice and SHUT THE HELL UP!!!!!!!!

2004-12-29T22:06:00.000-05:00

I had no intention of posting again today.Really.I was gonna curl up on my couch and pay homage to Jerry Orbach by watching law & order reruns.Then i ran into my stepford neighbor.
She was bursting at the seams to tell me about her annual christmas extravaganza.It starts with her and hubby dearest packing the kids into the minivan and driving around for an hour or two looking at other peoples christmas lights,then onto christmas village and ends with an hour ride home.
First i have to say if my kids are sitting in the car for 2 hours the final destination had better end with either food or activity(both if they have a choice).Second-my mom used to make us ride around looking at lights(we were bored out of our minds).
I would'nt care except she is always trying to manufacture these Norman Rockwell memories and we're all suppose to play along.I'm not really a play along kind of person.And besides,Norman Rockwell paintings are beautiful to look at but i would'nt want to live there.And they would'nt want me either.

I'm sinking

2004-12-29T16:18:00.000-05:00

I love my kiddies!I really do.I say that first for 2 reasons. 1.To remind myself and 2. To lay the ground work for my insanity plea in case i kill 1 or more of them.
It's not that they are bad kids,but the combo of the christmas come-down and being stuck in the house for the last 3 days(yucky weather)is just to much.Add to that out of 6 kiddies 4 have adhd.I am not having fun.If i hear "mommmm" one more time someone could get hurt.
It's worse because my dh is working 13 hours a day so i get no help.By the time he gets home all he wants to do is eat and go to sleep.
There is a bright side to this.I am using my pent-up aggression to rip down the drywall in the diningroom so the remodeling is offically underway again.Yipee!?

Christmas haze is gone!

2004-12-28T14:48:00.000-05:00

It was bound to happen.Frankly i'm suprised it lasted as long as it did.The kids's are coming out of there christmas induced stupor.Needless to say with 6 kids bickering i'm not getting much done.
I did finish Gracie's poncho(which was suppose to be done for christmas).It looks so cute on her and she loves the fur!I decided to make a pair of matching leg warmers.She is completely potty trained at home but the preschool wanted her to wear pull-ups just in case.Big mistake!As far as she is concerned it's a diaper and now she won't go potty at preschool.I figure after the christmas break i'll start putting her in dresses and panties(i don't care what they say).So the leg warmers will come in handy.I'll post some pic's as soon as their done.Hopefully it won't take too long.
I'm trying to wrap up all the projects i have started by the new year.Usually i have bunches,but i got most everything finished .I try not to carry anything over from year to year(except the one piece i'm working on) otherwise i'd need a storage shed!!
The coffee is done so i'm going back to work.

A new year

2004-12-27T10:19:00.000-05:00

This is the week when everybody starts looking toward the new year and making resolutions,so i figured i'd better get on board.I really hate making resolutions-it's just to much pressure.Who needs it.I'm gonna make a wish list type deal.So here goes: My wish list
Of things i'd like to accomplish in 2005

1:Take the time to really get my business off the ground.
2:Donate more to charity
3:Get organized
4:Finish remodeling the house

That's a start.I'm sure more will come to me.I'm really big on lists.

Off to the mall i go

2004-12-26T18:41:00.000-05:00

Hubby and i started out this morning the same way we start out the morning after every holiday.We fought.Not a huge not down drag out,but more the bickering letting off tension kind of fight.So his first reation when i started getting ready to go to the mall was relief.He didn't say it,but i know!His second reaction "are you insane", which he did say.I guess because i've been bitching so much about the mall and it zombie brain sucking inhabitants.But hey, we're talking about bargains.I can fight my way through a few zombies for a half-price leather coat!!!
I have to admit i've been very un-christmas like this year.I'm usually the first one out decorating but this year i just wasn't into it.I think it had alot to do with all the crap at the schools this year.I don't believe in forcing religion on anyone but things are getting out of hand when you can't call a christmas party a christmas party.Don't call it a christmas party but don't forget to send in $20 so your kids can have there picture taken with Santa.Bite me.(there i go again.)

Anyway,the mall wasn't that bad.It wasn't even half full.I had a great time shopping and even bought some new lights and balls for next year.I got some great deals at the craft store.Lots of yummy yarn.I'm just starting to experiment with the fun fur and eyelash.Not because i wanted to wait this long,there is just a really bad selection at the one craft store within driving distance.I can't wait for everyone to go to bed tonight so i can unpack my bags and get started!

Next year

2004-12-23T12:28:00.000-05:00

I found so many great ornament patterns this year that it has me thinking ahead.I usually do a victorian theme tree in wine and cream.Next year i want to change to a blue/sapphire and and white.I think this might just be an excuse to buy more yarn and thread,but so what!!Since we get a very large tree i figure i will start Jan.1 st and do a few each month.I'm guessing I'll need 3-4 dozen ball covers,a dozen angel,beaded garland and dozens of the dreaded snowflakes.And of course a tree skirt.

I'd also like to try felting.I'm not sure if i'm going to start with a purse or slippers.My daughter is voting for the purse.She saw one she wants.

I'm sure i'll be adding alot more since there are so many great patterns and so much beautiful yarn.

100 + Snowflakes

2004-12-22T09:34:00.000-05:00

I stayed up all night but i did it!!! 106 beaded sparkly snowflakes.Yeah!!!!!!I'm so proud of me.It wasn't easy.About 11:00 last night i realized i was going to be short some beads so off to wal-mart i scurried.Gotta love that wal-mart.By 1:00 i was back at home with a movie playing and in serious snowflake mode.When dh got up this morning i was sprinkling the last of them with glitter.I had to use a hair dryer to get that last batch completely dry,but it's done!I'll post some pictures later today after i have a few more cups of coffee and maybe a nice hot shower.Gee i hope that smell is coming from the baby.......

Christmas party???????

2004-12-21T09:46:00.000-05:00

I have to bitch alittle here today.2 of my kids are in preschool.Today they are having a party,but we can't call it a christmas party.We have to call it a winter carnival.Which to me seems really stupid since a few weeks ago they had pictures taken in the preschool with SANTA CLAUSE!!!They can't call the party in oct. a halloween party but they can wear costumes.I can't wait to see what we are calling the easter party this year.And in the end none of it matters.To the kids it's a christmas party.

Whew,i feel better.I seems stupid when i read back over it but it bugs me.Maybe because the people who raise religious objects in my town do it just to hear themselves talk.They don't practice any type of religion.They are simply spouting off something they read/heard thinking it makes them sound inteligent.Anyone can regurgitate someone elses thoughts or ideas.Anyway,enough of my preaching.

I'm stiffening the last of the snowflakes today!YIPEE!!I still have dh poncho to finish and the trim on gracie's poncho needs to be done.But i am super crocheter!Plus i found candy cane cappucino.Yummy!So the next few nights it's me,my hooks,my cappucino and some good movies!!

I give up

2004-12-17T12:32:00.000-05:00

Okay,i admit it.I give up!For now.I've spent the last 4 days trying to change the look of this blog and get it to look how i want.Then i ended up right back where i started from.I hate giving up.I've spent hours doing mind tricks to remember song/movie title,actors names,whatever.I obsess.That's me.But i've spent all this time trying to change the look and no time blogging.

Anyway onto better topic's.With christmas a week away my dh came home yesterday and asked me to "throw together a poncho" for a woman who works in his office.She's retiring after christmas and he'd like to give it to her as a christmas/retirement present.Throw together?Sure!I don't have enough to do at this late date?Oh well,lucky for me(and him)i have a very large stash.

!@#$#!%Snowflakes

2004-12-08T21:24:00.000-05:00

I got over 30 snowflakes finished since last night.This is now the official "I Hate Snowflakes" blog!!I can't even believe i'm saying that.I used to love snowflakes.They were what i did when i wanted a brake.Like cochet lite.Not anymore!!
Tonight i start starching and blocking.

On a brighter side i'm in search of a felted bag pattern.I've been dying to try felting and Elann's has some beautiful wool on sale.So as soon as christmas is over i am starting something for me!I hope the yarn doesn't get here too fast.I have zero willpower when it comes to yarn and trying new patterns.

I worked on Gracie's poncho for awhile too.I'm almost caught up to where i was before i noticed the @!%# dropped stitch.I can't wait to finish the body.I'm looking forward to trying the fun fur!!I still haven't decided if i'm putting a hood on this or not. I have to wait and see what it says to me i guess.

Reilly's snake is coming along.It's hard since he's the only one not in school finding time to work on it.But he's still curling up on the footrest cuddle my yarn and we're still fighting when i need to unwind more.But as i'm typing ths i just realized-I'm gonna miss it!

Oh well,back to the !%@#$snowflakes!!

Gracie'sPoncho

2004-12-07T11:50:00.000-05:00

Gracie's poncho

Well as you can see we have some curlage around the edge.This is the first thing i've ever made with the afghan stitch,i'm making the pattern up as i go.I'm hoping when i put the border and fun fur around the edge it will straighten out.I was further along but sleep deprivation must be catching up to me 'cause this morning i noticed a dropped stitch and had to frog 14 rows.!@#.

2004-12-06T19:13:00.000-05:00

Brady and Zeus

Thank God it's !!!!!!

2004-12-06T19:08:00.000-05:00

I never thought i'd be happy to see a monday.I really dread these last few weekends before christmas.The kids are out of patience and going batty and i'm crocheting frantically trying to finish up all the last minute gifts.

Today my dd came home from school with great news.She promised her teacher her mommie would donate 20 of her "beautiful crocheted snowflakes" for their class tree.AWWWWWWW.Shut up!!The tree is going up tomarrow!Guess what i'm doing tonight.I already have over 100 snowflakes to make for them to give out at there class christmas parties.I'd say i was in hell but we all know there are no snowflakes there.

I also started another last minute project.But this was neccessary.My little guy just loves yarn(wonder where that came from?)And every time he sees me get the hook he comes running/crawling.He just loves to sit and cuddle the skeins,but it makes it kind of hard to get anything done.So i'm making him a snake pillow toy.That way he can cuddle his yarn while i use mine.Hopefully!!

Oh well,i better get back to those darn snowflakes.

My first post

2004-11-26T04:27:00.000-05:00

Here it is black friday and i started taking inventory of all my projects that still need to be finished.I figure if i stop cleaning,get the kids to start feeding themselves and sleep no more than 2 hours a day i might finish by next year!!
There are just too many great idea's and interesting yarn.I found some really cute eyelash yarn at a great price so there goes my list.
I'm rearranging my bedroom closet because my stash closet overfloweth.